God gave us the freedom to choose, the freedom to make our own decisions including the freedom to commit sin or avoid one. I don't believe in destiny for we have the ability to think and make our own decisions. Where we are or what we are today is the product of our decisions in the past. Although there are some factors that contribute to the outcome of our decisions but we still have have a part of it.

So we should be aware of the consequences of our own action. We have to think twice, thrice and be careful in making big decisions in life. I experienced having to make a tough choice in life. That is to go home and quit my job to be with boyfriend and marry him or to continue with my job and career and live a convenient life abroad. I chose the former. But I admit that I was torn in two at that time. A part of me wants to stay because of the convenience but there's also a part of me that wants to go home because I am not happy and I miss my boyfriend very much.

It took me months of prayers and soul-searching to finally come up with a decision. And human as I am I also had fear of what life will awaits me for I don't have a job back home, it is difficult to find one and earn as much as I earn abroad.

Looking back now, I know that I made the right decision. Although I am not at the peak of my career but I am starting to have one albeit in a different path. And I am very happy, I was able to take care of my father when he was sick. And now I have my own family and they are constant source of blessings and reminder of where my happiness really lie.

That big decision in my life is actually my crossroad. There are things that are yet to happen but now I know what is my priority in life. I just rest in the thought that God will never leave me during the difficult times in my life especially if I made a mistake, that if I cannot bear to carry my burden, He will be willing to carry it for me. All I have to do is call on him and have faith.